Saturday, December 24, 2005
12:11 AM
what a year, what a year.. i've grown and there are things that i just can't do any more like being rowdy, cracking silly jokes at inapropreiate places(i'm quite glad at that actually) and now i officially have a problem with communicating my ideas well, u noe tht feeling where there's something stuck up there somewhere in your head but u can't seem to get it out and put it down into words. arhh! i so hate it when tht happens oh wells i guess i'm shutting up now haha may i learn to only open my mouth when i need to, at the right time and at the right place.
but hey there's always the other side to the coin: new abilities, talents and charateristics await me next year i guess. now i'm just left hanging in the middle, having thrown a big portion of my past away, with nothing much left as i wait and wach to see what happens next.
hmm.. nxt yr looks interesting, but of course i'm afraid, mm.. i guess this is where i stop and surrender my all, all the worries, the cares, the burdens and fears unto God, its hard i dare say, its the feeling where u go, God are u sure or not? will you handle it well for me? but i've taught myself this: i'd rather cast all my problems onto Jesus than have to handle all of them all by myself, cause i know things will not work out for the better good in my hands. so to a good year next year and a closer walk with God Amen!=D