what happened here..

2008-10-05T01:59:00.000+08:00

just came home from town and there are freakin a lot of ang mohs down there, esp the rich kid ones its like they walked out of the set of the OC or something. where'd all these ppl. come from?? my guess is that they're the left overs from the F1 fad. Get out of our country! haha i bet if marc read this he'd flip.
psst.. this entry IS for you i specially took the extra effort to copy it out of my other blog and put it here just for you! btw, i think tht by the time u'd get out, they'd be all goooooone hahahaha!

2008-09-15T16:34:00.002+08:00

i looked for you for a reply from you for the previous night's request but you just ran off, walked out on me. and that annoys you, i must be some kind of pest huh?

honestly, i don't know what to do any more

2008-09-14T19:20:00.001+08:00

appalled. at the people

2008-09-02T19:48:00.001+08:00

The TFT GuardHouse,
We will never Forget.

Fahami (1986)
Jason(1987)
Brendon(1987)
Elliot(1988)

2008-08-23T15:06:00.002+08:00

2 more weeks!!

2008-08-23T11:49:00.003+08:00

Is it me or are Singaporeans becoming friendlier and more spontaneous? I find a lot of them smiling more automatically and its not just the service staff but strangers on the street too. When i see most people in uniform out there, we'd make an effort to greet one another either with a gentle nod of the head or a slightly exaggerated smile and this time its not just a 1 sided thing any more! There was once, one Armour guy who asked me how I was doing at the Bukit Batok MRT ticketing machine . oh, and the other day on the bus, I had a conversation with some stranger after asking directions. haha i hope she found her way around.

these things just make the day a tad more pleasant eh!

2008-08-23T11:28:00.003+08:00

As a bored NSF serving in the army, I felt it to be my duty to do some platoon labeling over breakfast one morning. Wee Siong was amazing, he got the match up all right (not that it was very hard actually). So here are th match ups, Zulu Company in summary (one day I'll have to read this again for old times sake).

Platoon stooopid - Platoon 1
Platoon jia lat - Platoon 2
Platoon i'm soo sloooow - Platoon 3
Platoon welfare - Platoon 4

yeap that's it I guess, I've a feeling most of us would agree with this"p maybe i should start labeling my platoon mates

Rec Wayang - Chu.. (wah wah wahh.. no way i'll get in too much trouble)

anyway lets feep this one within the 4 walls of our impenetrable bunk ah!

p.s smokers will do ANYTHING for a smoke break..

2008-08-18T16:18:00.005+08:00

woke up 5:20, booked out, met my AWESOME dad(thank you daddy=D), did that mapas test thing at CMPB, drew six hundred and fifty dollars, bought ROCK BAND. elliot, get ready to rock this world when you get your Wii back.

hahaha jQ check out which track they used for their trailer! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXSxtOWdPDk

2008-08-18T11:20:00.001+08:00

saw an Audi R8, beautiful thing.

2008-04-18T16:03:00.001+08:00

13 Jun my foot! rarr.

hope i do my QT today!

2008-03-03T15:40:00.001+08:00

the last update from wendy:

Brudder,

I will arrange for someone to pick you all up. How many of you are there? What flight u taking? And what time u reaching Jakarta? Probably I'll take a leave on that day but not sure if I can accompany u guys for all 4 days.

What do u mean the driver's schedule btw?

Plan to take you guys to:

1) Tangkuban Perahu crater (magnificent view on highlands, horse-riding, hiking)
2) Ciampelas Walk (Orchard Rd of Bandung)
3) Dinner at a nice restaurant on top of the hill with view of Bandung city
4) Farm visit which serves splendid yoghurt
5) Kawah Putih (Havent been here myself but heard twas a nice place)
6) Would u like to see kampongs as well?

Haha not sure it'll last the 4 days though. Maybe take u round Jakarta as well...I'll bring u guys to Kemang Village for good eats maybe. Its a place that's popular with the expats... But trust me, there's more things to see in Bandung than Jakarta.

Do inform me ASAP so that I can arrange.

2008-02-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

ow... ok i think i got it.

2008-02-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

Bummer. Mécontentement. Insatisfacción. Mendak. Unzufriedenheit.

there, xian in 5 different languages.
lousy lousy week.

great.. it had to end with broken specs.

2007-08-06T15:27:00.000+08:00

3 random posts and this blog is back in business!

hah. boh liao.

2007

2007-01-02T02:13:00.000+08:00

2007, a year with new objectives to meet, actually i'd say its time to launch a few resolves this year to work towards and here are a few of them:
- To walk closer to God this year instead of staying lukewarm all year round again (time to up tht RPG frequency eh elliot?)
- To be a dedicated AGL for the year, pls i beg and pray tht i don't mess anything up given the attitude i hav had for service recently.
- At least one buisiness idea has got to take off this year.
- To work 200% harder in school this year, i'll pump in much more effort and commitment this time round, so tht means less play for me too which i've to learn to get used to.

shoot.

2006-11-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

Hello blog. Long time no see eh? Anyway the new one’s been put on hold for another project so don’t worry you’ll have me for a while longer. Hmm I feel tht frontal’s changed the way I put things into perspective now, esp on the streets, it’s a change conservative’s may consider not good. Anyway I’ve suggested creating a forum of our own and have got two kinds of responses, and they both swing to the extremes, one sees the potential of it and the other side thinks it’s a waste of resources, I belonged to one end of the extreme but now I’ve slid down to the middle. So anyway, we’ve talked about it and on both the technical and creative sides, we have the strength to move on to the next step, so heck, we’ll give it a shot anyway, won’t kill anyone. Gonna run it for say.. 2-3 months at least? Then we’ll see if it would be worth it enough to carry. oh well time to think. Seeya~

2006-09-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

funny how i shld be the one writing about me being the one who got knocked down by a car today. but rahhh! i'm too lazy to do a thing.. so here's tim's and eug's seperate accts. abt wat happened tht fateful nite. two different ppl. two very different stories to tell. oh by the way anyone's got the song i get knocked down by smash mouth? ok stop stop.
http://w-e-n.blogspot.com/
http://everlasting-phoenix.blogspot.com/

2006-09-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

miss me?? then giv urself a tight slap across the face, cuz there's something's probably very wrong with you. anyway this is the last entry from me because (i) i'm too lazy to keep updating(oh great elliot, keep tht up) and (ii) i think there's gonna be a collab effort between chee chang and i to come out with a new blog(wow, so that's two lazy bloggers and a hopelessly hopeless blog.. hmm this is gonna get interesting), tho i must say it'll take quite a bit of time to get things up and running.. anyways till then, i'll keep rather quiet(on the internet that is), until chang and i move our butts and actually get something done, oh well.. syonara tauhueyandelliot, will miss u! altho i always thot tht u were pretty silly. hah. bye.

the dragon fad

2006-07-27T10:37:00.000+08:00

haha everyone’s joining dragon boat suddenly la! looks lyk our dear Mr. Khy’s doing his job pretty well, getting the class interested in dragon boat. interestingly it’s the girls who are more willing and open to join db (ppl. lyk vasentha and izzah, who I thot would be the last persons to join). just testerday Khy showed me our schl team’s blog yesterday and I was almost convinced by him to join too! haha but nah.. its not my kinda of thing I suppose. oh! and there’s always tht one cute/strong/charismatic/charming boy which he says keeps the girls in db.. its adorable(I hope he’s not referring to himselfXP) anyway.. all the best to the ppl. in db! Continue to win more Golds for us yea!

and ahh!! I hope I don’t join the civil defense nor anything non-military when I serve my NS. Peng Kee says there are lots of aquas in there. Ahhh! Ahh! with a capital A! ok maybe I’m just being paranoid.. but ahh!

2006-07-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

my brain. my brain's like a fish out of the water most of the time. i'm always too tired by the time i get home to study or try to interpret math formulaes for my stats module and inventory management especially. yet i hav to study as much as i can when i'm home and stuff cuz there really isn't any other time to!! oh well. did i say? i miss home cooked food a LOT. nvr thot i'd say such a thing, but yea.. eating outside food all the time is fast becoming disgusting. to me at least. i feel all yeeky, oily and stuff. its almost lyk i can feel my blood turning acdic and all. oh boy i need to detox lyk real soon. i'm sorry, this entry's lyk real random but i'm putting it up anyway so that at least i start blogging again or something, maybe nxt time when i've more energy and time to think

2006-06-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

ooh.. wow its been a long drawn week.. hmm i've been trying to busy myself with lots of small little things to distract myself quite a bit. i've been really really interested in economics lately, maybe its because of my parent's influence and a little bit of what i'm doing now in poly. oh.. and by the way did i say? i finally got myself convinced to want to go to university, but aiya getting there's gonna be tough, must aim to be the elitist of my batch and do like really super well. haha as much as i wish i were dreaming i've got to work doubly hard. the first step would be to complete my professional profiling ahh! i've not gotten started, need to ask Meri a few questions and hopefully with prayer God will lead me to choose a correct company to go to conduct the profiling!

i gotta pray pray pray like i never did b4:

~ to maintain my pledge of service to the Lord along with zhang too=))
~Grace, her life's in God's hands now.. wait.. it always has been haha pray for grace for Grace and family
~ a sudden blackhole threat discovered in the Universe: Eloitter (sorry but this is too embarassing to state what actually happened.. or rather too painful to recall it all back)
~ pray for the people of elliot to help cope with this new discovery and somehow that it will go away and we can all live happily ever after(no, really i'm serious its not an easy time, really)
~ a sustained drive in studies and sudden ambition to keep me alive in school
~ a strong family
- thank God for my dad who's come back more spiritually alive than i've evere seen him.. just yesterday he prayed for me and the family and i never felt so loved/secured in my whole entire life (indeed the best kind of love to feel would always be parental love apart from God's love though)
- my mum! she's much more patient now and more open to talk to too oh yea and her courage to start family Devotion again even after a long time. applauds!
- both my parents! they're a wealth of wisdom!
~ finally realizing my study pattern, not too far from my dad's.. fast but in shortbursts.. haha hope i'll noe how to manipulate that.. or even better.. improve on it..

hmm.. honestly i thot i had much more to pray about oh well.. must be that i don't want to elaborate on some of the points emm but this should be sufficient enough=)) oh wait.. i just realised this is my 1st ever prayer list.. haha

2006-06-21T07:42:00.000+08:00

truth to be told it was not easy at all.. but even in life's darkest, most ugliest moment she remained AMAZING even unto the very end. and i thank her for that, it made the departure so much easier for me..

2006-06-02T00:59:00.000+08:00

heyo=)) haha think i've lost the ability to blog.. haha been so long alr. anyway there's a new video!! haha love the vid.. no idea why, its a real old song but i still love it haha i bet tim teo will be eyeyng the white yamaha piano and zhang would love to have the huge black and white photoes of hmself and i wouldn't mind taking home the drum set just because its limited edition=D

2006-05-16T13:50:00.000+08:00

if there were a pill tht was labelled: 'kill your enemy in an instant' i'd take it..
is this angst gonna be here for long? i don't think so i really hope not.. really.

schl's rubbish family's not arnd and friends not listening. things are going great.

ok i admit i noe nuts abt HTML so the video on my tagboard page is not aligned properly oh well if u don't lyk it u could always go somewhere else?

2006-05-15T00:39:00.000+08:00

Blood's thicker than Water. Definetly. my dad's back=)) bonding well with my family lyk never before! and dad's gelling up pretty well with the church ppl thnk God for that hmm.. i'm doing well with my family and ppl arnd my family yet i feel i'm losing touch with my own personal friends.. hope there's no link between the two=/

2006-05-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

ahh tht nite how can i forget=)

2006-04-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

sometimes i can be just so DISTRACTED.. I'd ask a Qn to a friend, and if a fly just so happens to flyby i'd turn and my eyes would follow it wherever it buzzes off to and when it finally flies off to somewhere its almost impossible to see it ever again i'd turn back and stare at my friend blankly before remembering tht i just asked him a Qn and then i'd go off wondering what his reply was to me.. okok time to get back to work now..

my dearest sweet little sister

2006-04-20T18:01:00.000+08:00

my sister has the most warped thinking i've ever seen in my life.. this evening she was implying: if u don't help me take the bowls down frm the cupboard and i happen to drop it, its not my problem..
i raised my eyebrow, and asked: "huh? what"
"i said if i drop the bowl its not my problem"
"then who's problem is it Miss?"
with confidence she replied with a rock solid answer: "no one's"
"so if YOU drop and break the bowl then it's NOBODY'S responsibility?"
now if there were a world lyk tht where you break or damage something and don't have to be held accountable for it i'd leave for that place without having 2nd thots man..
so later my sister told me: "i'd clean up the mess so its not my problem any more.."
"huh?? but you broke the bowl rite?"
"yah"
"so then it would be your problem after tht rite?"
"no, i'll just be responsible for cleaning up.."
"so ok.. who's fault issit if u dropped the bowl"
"your's"(what??! did she actually say tht it would be my fault??) "no, no i meannobody's lah!"
arghh.. does she make sense? i mean yea.. cleaning up is fixing the problem but still she has to be responsible for it rite? but b4 i could say tht she danced off with tht lalala humm which just gets on my nerves some times sigh.. here you see how human it is for us to not want to admit our mistakes not matter small it is.. i too admit am guilty of this

back on track

2006-04-15T23:31:00.000+08:00

my life's back on track! not tht it was on the right track much of the time but at least now there's a direction for almost every aspect of my life, family: the base is setup, just have to keep building up on it, then there's my friends, whom i hav learnt lessons frm the past and got a chance to move on again and my studies! which i never felt more excited abt! hah sounds so contraditory eh? last but most importantly is my spiritual walk=) without it the other aspects of my life wouldn't function properly at all, i've learnt tht it's not all talk but faith put into practice too!

haha ok here's just a brief summary abt the turns i'm taking in this little misunderstood life of mine=) but i don't worry.. i surrender all to my Father in Heaven, he takes much better care of me than anyone else here on Earth can=D

2006-04-11T16:52:00.000+08:00

in this way i feel free! so.. leave me be!!

amendment to my problem=(

2006-04-10T21:42:00.001+08:00

sigh.. i actually have to explain this.. segregating myself frm you is not running away, its sadly happens to be my BEST solution now. what else do you expect me to do? come to you all excited, bubbly and stuff? i'd believe tht would be really fake and would last only for a fragment of a second.. as clearly and plainly put in evan's blog: "and you'll be surprised at how many are just hiding under that facade. everything's so superficial, so fake.its not easy to change you say, i know cos most of the time we're trying to change the outward image when our inward is the same, evil and hideous. start from the inside. pray.(:" i've prayed abt it.. hav u?

i wish never to talk about this part of my life ever again, its not nice and i don't like things tht are not nice=/

2006-04-08T01:23:00.000+08:00

orang utans.. huh?? what??!? why? i must be going crazy..

God..

2006-04-04T12:00:00.000+08:00

abt God:

I don't see you in the sky,
But I feel you in my heart
I gaze at your world in color
Though standing before you as always
Wrapped in plain black and white
Being surrounded by your colors
I feel as simple as I am
~Gilad

easy to bully=(

2006-04-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

Not exactly the Sunday i thot it to be.. but one tht i'd say would change me.

ppl who'd often see me arnd would.. i guess.. see less of me. why? cos i'm dealing with some personal issues right now and these people.. when i encounter ineraction with, would cause me to put up a false front and not be able stress to you what i feel.. so sooner or later(esp. when together) the problem will surface again.. so instead, i decided tht i would make it my problem and deal with it myself. if u don't hav the slightest clue and are completely oblivious to it here's a little hint (and you can choose not to read on anyway).. i don't know but you think its funny, your mockings and sacarsms abt me.. IN FRONT of me.. yea i find it funny too.. but when its repeated over and over agn AND to different ppl. it becomes more than just a joke and yes it hurts behind that smile.. but it is my duty to watch myself and make sure i don't give tht type of impression any more but with u (guys) digging up the past and continually "adding to the fire" its hard to correct tht image and to a point its just so easy to give up.. its been almost a year of forcing out giggles and maintaining friendly smiles.. sure a year or two ago i wouldn't really mind or care if such things were said abt me but not too long ago i started to get terribly SICK of it, sick of ur false assumptions and sick of ur endless mockings.. its so sad tht these were the ppl i regarded as one of the closest ppl in my life. but no worries.. this is now MY problem and i'll deal with it on my own. nothing much i guess you can do any more, its not as if i didn't try to tell you these things

thing is: i really really hate tht acid tongue of urs, it stops becoming funny, i mean.. yea, it makes u hilarious and all but wat if i were to throw you onto the recieving end? its not tht i'm ultra-sensitive, xiao qi or anything, its just tht i'm REALLY SICK of it.

regret

2006-04-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

Looks like it not just teenagers and kids who can't keep their mouthes shut when it comes to secrets.. what am i to say?? am i terribly dissapointed in them? no, not really just lost a little faith in them.. well as word spreads around elliot shall be going back into his little burrow not knowing when ever to come out to see the light again. (this incident has nothing to do with my own parents)

>>he would like to ask though: why ppl. are watching for where the elephant heads to?

ellos!

2006-03-24T00:24:00.000+08:00

the reason why i blog so little is tht i treat writing as a major project, and each new project takes yrs and yrs of planning, tht's how it is with my blog, just tht the projects many a times doesn't turn out the way its supposed to be

anyway moving on.. i just came back frm Thailand!! lovely place tht is! now u might hav thot i was in Bangkok, shopping and stuff, well.. not really, yea ok fine, i was there to take a toilet break and hav lunch but after tht we were off to Northern Thailand! man i'd prefer tht place over Bangkok, anytime.. North Thailand beats Bangkok hands down totally. haha maybe its cuz i'm more of a nature kinda person haha not lyk some ppl.(cough cough..zha cough ..ng coughs) oh boy tht cough's not gone since last week. anyway such ppl( i shan't name who) went huh??!? no aircon ah..... no heater to?? wah da boh leh tahan la! (cough zh cough ang cough) oh dear think i need to go see a doctor soon.. hmm i myself almost didn't hav much of a chance of surviving! there was a period there when i met 4 accidents in 4 straight days.. but they were all minor injuries cuts and bruises.. and i hate scabs.. they keep tempting me to peel them off arghh.. stupid scabs.. anyway sleeping in a tent was cool... really cool, no i mean it.. i think its more than just cool i think its cold even.. as if sleeping without sleeping bags wasn't bad enuf, but my tent was a three man tent with only one person(me) to sleep in so it felt empty and cold haha oh well but Tim and i were discussing what to put in it, i think it would have fit a desktop computer, a 24-inch LCD TV, a refriegerator, stereo works, a treadmill and a yatch. hmm yea oh wells tht's all i can put into words in my blog for the rest of the experiences you would hav to ask me! oh haha did i mention? the team tht went there was so cool and i learnt to appreciate bro. kenneth in the end=)

oh yes, lets clear up a rumour thts going arnd abt the Missions trip there: ppl say i wet my bed, which i myself mentioned to some, yes.. there was 1 morning tht i woke up only to find my bed wet.. but tht was because everything in my tent condensed!! it was tht cold 1 morning la tht even my comforter condensed and oh the nite b4, an owl landed rite outside tim's and my tent and started hooting, so cool! for dunno wat reason i thot it was a camel passing by waha!

here's a little song kenneth wrote while waiting for uncle Kiong at the airport lol!

its played in this score: 5 4 3 1 1 5. 1 1 3 2 3 5 3 2

There was peace when i first did
arrive at the airport
The seats were quite empty at five-
forty-five a.m
There was I happy as happy as can
ever be
Until a group of loud tourists arrived.

They are making their way
most directly towards me
They loudly did talk you can
hear them at Jurong
They steadily went for the seats next to
poor me
To deafen my ears with
their loud piercing glee.

Like a poor sitting duck
there I sat what a target
But where can i go there were
no other seats so
I had to endure the most gruelling
of tortures
Til Kiong came to rescue me
from this ordeal

oh yea! there was still uncle robert and auntie dara's farm where me and my sis got to be assistant missionary dental nurses! wahahaha i miss thailand!

2006-03-11T01:04:00.000+08:00

allow me to be frank mister.. i am so so dissapointed in you..

2006-03-06T16:03:00.000+08:00

sometimes knowing God's will is one thing but accepting it is a seperate issue altogether huh?

>>FAITH

~dunked

2006-02-20T01:29:00.000+08:00

DUNK:

- dip food in liquid

- submerge temporarily in liquid

-immerse self in water

-shove somebody’s head under water

-slam basketball into basket from above

DUNK- now here’s word that will stick with me for quite a while. i am here writing for the rights of the victims of tht terrible crime.. having gone through it once too I personally believe that these definitions are understatements to what the victims actually gone through and experienced. it is a traumatic experience so terrible it turns its victims into the monsters who first committed the crime. it just drives you to desperation.. utter desperation. here’s my account about that almost perfect nite that went horribly wrong

it was quickly turning dark about 12-15 of us were there at the time of the crime, the witnesses undeniable and the murder’s intent unstoppable. it was in fact quite tragic tht such things should take place on the same day as jQ’s b’day. as everyone was calmly setting up the tables, getting ready the food and drinks the shrieks and squeals of the first victim were heard but was soon silenced and it was soon forgotten, besides the poolside seemed calmed for the moment. we were soon going to learn tht negligence would be the 1^st major mistake we would make in a series of others. an hour or so later a loud roar or wat seemed to be a thunderous cry of help filled the night sky followed by waves water crashing and splashing down to the next pool was heard. subsequently the heinous deed repeated itself over and over again, only with different ppl. each time and there seemed to be no stopping to it and based on instinct I fled the scene almost immediately. but after a while I took comfort in the fact tht all those who were dunked were those of age 20 and above and anyway the frenzy had alr died down. so I came out of hiding and went to a relatively safe spot to grab a bite but just as soon as I got comfy and all, I saw at the corner of my eye a shadow moving. then I looked up with part of the chicken in my mouth and its bones still in my hands. there, in my difficult position dripping wet elvin greeted me with a great big wide smile: ‘hello elliot, I see tht u are not wet yet’ in my mind I thot ‘hello!! ur dripping water all over me, do u even noe wat u’re saying??’ but tht didn’t seem to work(hmm.. I wonder why(why do I even wonder anyway!)). anyway at the next instant I was off the chair and into the pool.. arghh I was left there stranded for abt 20 mins in my shirt jeans and socks which were later partially dried by the spotlights (which could have set them on fire according to Danny). nxt up was my good old pal zhang who thot he was safe when jQ’s mum managed to save him once but tht didn’t stop jQ at the 2^nd attempt and zhang too was down n the pool without much strugglewe all thot he would be the end of all the dunkin for the day but no.. there was still one more life tht would be claimed tht nite. and I still remember quite vaguely.. tht one chosen person was evan and she didn’t go down without a fight it took phoebe and jQ to get the job done, with jQ at the feet and phoebe at the other end but when they threw her in evan just wouldn’t let go of phoebe and dragged her in too. lol!

haha wat rubbish! I didn’t despise the whole thing! actually I was one of those who stood and watch and later cheered on dunkers! but soon retribution was brought upon me too.. haha but it was funn!!! And so was the rest of the weekend, witness an accident on Sat=X

haha anyway God bless and keep you!

2006-02-16T01:59:00.000+08:00

haven't blogged in ages! it almost seemed lyk i abandoned it altogether.. well as stubborn as i am, i haven't! haha in fact my last entry didn't get posted, hmph.. so now it looks even more abandoned haha anyway life's been a splash of colours and a great big emotional roller coaster ride.. if by tht u mean having to go through a war at home, being tae kwan doe slammed by some secret ninja in my class, facing two certain, no.. wait uncertain ppl in class everyday, day in day out.. then maybe yes it is a roller coaster ride. haha total rubbish i would say

this entry would be dedicated to telling you more about my bright and brilliant class(sure annot) as this semester draws to a close.. is there a hint of highness in elliot now? hmm.. aniwai b4 i go on let me do a little rambling: arghh! can’t stand my mum, ofcourse i’d get fed up if my mum presses me to drink her soup while doing my work and she blew up scolding me tht nite. man.. i wish her soup blew up, then i wouldn’t have to drink it. anyway this whole thing sparked a whole new world war III at home, now she say’s i hav to do everything on my own.. literally, so she took my can of apple ice tea and a box of kellog’s frosties which i just finished, out of the bin and placed it in my room, saying I’ve got to throw it out on my own.. dotzz.. this is so dumb.. so this time I won’t react at all, i’ll just sit back and watch how much more ridiculous things get.

ahh.. feel so much better and now back to my class haha hope u’ve not yet lost stamina to continue on reading.. hmm don’t noe where to start, guess i’ll start with one word: QUIRKY haha says it all.. though i find there’s a lot more potential in there.. maybe if we had a full year together woot! if only.. haha ok I’ll try to go on describing as many ppl as i can in 1 nite

!shawn- the charming little china man: or also known no-lifer 2^nd in command, well this guy’s gotta colourful personality with a really really stoned face (don’t worry there’s one who’s face is more stoned and yes there can only be one more.. and he’s first in command) but shawn’s really really nice company to hav arnd and I thnk u for tht=D
!chea boon- mr. Jay Chou: its an honour to be your friend dear sir, if only u could do tht ‘driving in an AE-87 or wat not, while sticking your head out the car window when u can very well see through the windscreen better’ pose for me then only would our friendship be complete! haha bet ya whispering ‘crap’ to urself while reading this lyk u always do when I spam u on MSN when actually ur sitting right beside me. haha! but behind tht stumped face u give me almost all the time there’s a nice sense of warmth I feel in there=)
mohanaa- ms. little red indian: don’t get me wrong! i lyk ur name! reminds me of the red Indians up in hills which both me and my dad respect lots! just tht instead of holdin tht little axe thing, u’d hav an A-maths txtbk instead.. haha won’t forget ur sweet smile for quite a while
celeste- well wad can I say? Ms. Green apples? haha yea I guess: not much of you i noe abt, hmm just tht I’m sure u’d make a nice friend=) oh hav I told u? u share the same name as my sister, haha yea.. lyk for the millionth time already, seeya arnd more often!

now.. u might be wondering: are these ppl, ranked in order of closeness, grades, shuainess, popularity or whatever? haha well simply, i’d tell you.. NO just tht these ppl were in my team today, tht’s why I wrote abt them 1^st=P

!wee siong- the karate kid, skilled assassin, hired mercenary, genghis kahn, samurai, ninja ring leader, tom yum goong, martial arts master and not forgetting my lunch buddy=D: do I feel as if my chances of survival have been halved, whenever he’s around? well.. definetly! i mean this is the guy who injured me many more times than I’ve injured myself, in my entire life! there was this one time I had dinner with him and I went home all cold and sweaty with food poisoning and I bet he was the one who poisoned my chilli sauce… even sitting nxt to him evokes terror in my heart.. why do I not fight back? well i did try!! Just today, after schl I mustered up all my strength and confidence to strike back, and as stealthily as possible I creeped up behind him waiting for the perfect chance to strike at him, but even b4 I could think of my nxt move, he turned arnd, picked me up, and did some tae kwan doe flip on me! he’s not human I tell ya!(tis all true) haha despite all the hate and anger I get frm him he’s still one of my closest friend in class Righteous!!
uhh.. getting tired, groggy and all, can’t go on, haha might blog more on my other cherished, flowery, lovely dovely classmates(yek! haha) some other time, or my blog might lie dormant for yet another half a century agn, haha hope not.. oh wells seeya!

dreadzz..

2006-01-15T01:05:00.000+08:00

this week's been a big DREAD, made no progress in anything, felt as if.. no wait I know i've drifted away from God tha't's why its been such a lousy week. its time to tie up my shoe laces and get moving on again may the Lord see me through this new week, i look forward to walking close with Him again.

goodbye elliot, hello elliot

2005-12-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

what a year, what a year.. i've grown and there are things that i just can't do any more like being rowdy, cracking silly jokes at inapropreiate places(i'm quite glad at that actually) and now i officially have a problem with communicating my ideas well, u noe tht feeling where there's something stuck up there somewhere in your head but u can't seem to get it out and put it down into words. arhh! i so hate it when tht happens oh wells i guess i'm shutting up now haha may i learn to only open my mouth when i need to, at the right time and at the right place.
but hey there's always the other side to the coin: new abilities, talents and charateristics await me next year i guess. now i'm just left hanging in the middle, having thrown a big portion of my past away, with nothing much left as i wait and wach to see what happens next.
hmm.. nxt yr looks interesting, but of course i'm afraid, mm.. i guess this is where i stop and surrender my all, all the worries, the cares, the burdens and fears unto God, its hard i dare say, its the feeling where u go, God are u sure or not? will you handle it well for me? but i've taught myself this: i'd rather cast all my problems onto Jesus than have to handle all of them all by myself, cause i know things will not work out for the better good in my hands. so to a good year next year and a closer walk with God Amen!=D

hmm hmm la~

2005-12-24T00:01:00.000+08:00

hmm this song's been floating around in my library for quit sometime abt a yr now and I haven't been listening to it much until recently and i've been thinking abt it quite a bit, haha its definetly a musrt have song:
Jimmy Eat World - Kill Lyrics
Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I wanna go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance? (chance?)
Or only one way that it was always meant to be (be)
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say (hey hey,
hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmeiser song goes
It's just like being alone
Oh please don't tell me this has been in vain (vain)
I need answers for what all the waiting after means (means)
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes
(hey hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away
So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Gotta take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
So much regret
I know what you want to say
(Know what you want to say)
I know people can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
Tell me just what has it ever meant?
I can't help it baby, this is who I am (am)
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel (feel)
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break (hey
hey, hey hey)
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

hol update

2005-12-18T21:41:00.000+08:00

wow by the looks of it, it looks like updating is going to be a once a year kind of thing at this rate. think i should do something abt it, anyway here's another quick update before R2D2(the steam machine) gets all heated up, i'm cleaning the white stuffs in between the tiles by the way.

i think Dec's gone by really really fast! too fast in fact. YF camp's over and i'm having withdrawal symptoms, its like things are not the same, now, sleeping alone feels wierd, must be the dorm fellowship. it's where all the guys(yes, including me tim) huddle up together to pour their hearts out, it was wierd the first nite but we all got used to it soon enough anyway yf camp was great, gonna miss it lots, and i think the camp comm. did a wonderful job this year=D oh, R2's ready, brb
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i'm back! after cleaning(but i'm still not finished><), bathing, chatting, catching a glimpse of LOTR and taking out the trash, ah yes captain's back on board haha. as i was taking my bath i was thinking of the many things i want for christmas, ah yes i believe its called a wishlist, i never had one, not even on my blog so here goes: a bicycle!
a new guitar!
a nice bottle of colounge
a digicam!
a lifetime supply of watermelons, grapes and bananas in a small chiller by my bedside
new shirts and slippers
a dog loving nun. no i mean mum
2 cups of lemonade
not having james blunt to sing so high any more
quater or at least half the no. of ppl who are so kawai
a fender guitar once i learn to play tabs well
a sheep
hmm.. tht's abt it i guess, not vry much for a boy like me, most definetly this list will change along with timebut for now i think this is at least 80% of what i want i think, i forgot the rest. anyway it not early any more really need to get to bed haha hmm.. hols are not over yet, so are ny postings, will be back some day hopefully with more energy to blog agn!

and hello again!

2005-11-19T02:38:00.000+08:00

and hello again! haha it's been like a thousand years already. hmm.. lots changed arnd here, friendships break, new ones form, and some i just got to know a little more better its like they were there and all you had to do was look a lttle deeper and u see a different person altogether! then agn there are the close friends that fade away, those u noe that u can never experience with him or her again because situations change and all ur left with are the bits and pieces of those memories u keep in a corner of ur mind without knowing why you still do so but hey! its all part of growing up huh? and we all only need is just ONE friend, and i noe mine's up there somwhere, watching over me no matter how distant i grow from him, he still calls me back=)

life's been a little shakey for some of us but thank God we're alrite, the Os' are almost over what a relief.. don't know why i feel it too haha just lyk when the Ns' were over for Chan haha he was so bright and chirpy back then.. hmm.. wonderful, its almost 3 and i'm not in bed haha i'm vry tired, will update agn nxt time till then toodaloo!

some of u might much more=)

wake me up when next Sept. ends

2005-10-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

are the sleigh bells ringing already? well, in elliot land they are! haha Christmas mood arrived rather early this yr, can’t help thinking about Dec. man.. I caught myself looking for Christmas CDs’ just recently but the thing is, i can’t seem to find any so I thought of buying more later this week. Anyway the hols have been quite light i would say.. not much happened this month cos everyone’s in schl and i didn't really get a job for the month, neither did i go all out to play.

oh, 2day's my 1st day back to schl and like everyone else i've started to think about the last day of school anyway my class has changed=( and i'm not quite used to it yet and i don't think i will be anytime soon because the people in this class are so much more different from my previous one.. but who knows it might turn out differently? ahh! i miss my old classmates alr! we made it a point to meet with every opportunity we had, almost escaped off to Orchard to have a quick lunch before we had to come back but the bus took soo long to arrive so some of us ended up eating cup noodles from the friendly nearby Mobil station.. ughh.. haha

something went quite wrong today but i did my best to try and correct it.. but think it wasn't easy at all. hmm.. me and yong zhi are back on talking terms again yay!

ahh!! blogger won't let me change the colour! man.. it's going to be so dull=P *do i sound tired??

2005-10-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

i see a package, and it’s a big one. it’s a problem tht i have with a friend of mine. and on it, is my name written in bold with a huge frownie face next to it.. it’s floating down a river and would eventually drift away. shld i pick it out and open it? i fear what is in it, and it’s not the loss of friendship i fear, it’s the pride expect of it, the fact tht i have to realize and admit my wrong doing, to accept that i’ve been making the mistake all this while.. and after tht i’ve to change the habit, break the chain, and come up with a new way to solve the problem and to keep to it and not fall again.. it seems so troublesome and yet the package drifts further away, almost out of reach, and i choose to ignore it and regret later, it seems so much easier that way. but as i lose sight of it i see my friendship with it drift further away. i can but only kneel at the riverside to wash away the tears.. but i stand up again to give chase after it. and as i run i realized the ugliness of me: why had i acted tht way? do i always have to think only for myself? must i always manipulate everytime i have the oppurtunity to? why didn't i consider his feelings? what did i treat him as? was it fair? did he deserve this from me? why had i chosen to ignore the whole thing? i was reduced to tears again so i said a little prayer. and before i knew it i saw the package gently floating along slide with me and i stooped down to retrieve it out of the running water and place it down onto the ground. and just before i opened it i prayed just once more.. but still there were traces of fear tht could be found hidden in me.. but when i opened it all i found was a blessing: it’s a better me and a happier friend=)

forgive me yong zhi

the hols are here!

2005-09-19T13:22:00.000+08:00

hello again everyone! if there's anyone.. haha anyway elliot's having his holidays, and yes it's a one month holiday after which it's back to school for 2 straight months.. sigh.. there's going to be a change of class for this new Semester, oh well.. anyway the holiday's been quite fun after all it's been quite an active 1st 2 weeks i put in a futile effort to find a job for tis month and i found nohing so finally i had to turn to a job agency got a few day job offers but they all landed on the class chalet dates! oh and abt the class chalet, it was fun fun fun! haha yea much better than my sec 4 one, but too bad i couldn't stay over this yr but i got to go back on both days=D it was at pasir ris, so u could imagine how much time i spent on travelling, after each trip i thot iwas suffering from jet lag.. anyway i got to noe some of our classmates better after the chalet too bad we're splitting=( haha maybe we could have another one agn in Dec! oooh i can't wait for camp!! no wait.. i can't wait for Dec! it'll be the best Dec. hol eh sec 4s'? going to Borneo for a missions trip this yrwhich means i'm going pon the last few days of schl this semster! an mum says i'll have to be my sister's bodyguard while we're there! muahaha u can bet i'll ring a lot of false alarms for her! oh wells pray for our safety while we're there.. ok i better get back to my hmwk and end this holiday rite!

ooh i dun mind studying at FEBC one day!

morning madness

2005-09-01T14:26:00.000+08:00

woohoo! today's been bright and cheery! haha ok maybe not but everything's been much better now! oh well yesterday wasn't as bad as i thot it would be, left sch early to watch a show, a show so lousy it's not worth mentioning.it's a new horror movie St. Angie, and all i remember of it is endless walking with the ghosts looking more like failed human experiments. sigh should have watched the march of the penguins. haha oh wells.. felling rather cheery today! hmm.. had eugene come over my my hous ethis mornin and left for schl wif him, was late.. obviously. did nothing much at schl 2day, oh and y.z decided not to ponn schl after all! yay! oh well tht's just a short update for u, since Tues. haha till i blog agn

waha xian ah!!

2005-08-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

bleah bleah bleah..tht's the kind of noises i've been making inside of my head recently. i've been really, really easily irritated.. esp. durin schl and i think tmr will be no different so i got to wait till after 4 tmr to release all the tension, feel lyk juz going to schl tmr and turn off immediately, don't even want to touch my laptop.. sigh all this in bad timing.. it's the last week of schl and we're all changing classes and everyone's starting to miss 1 another and anticipating the end of schl but i just dun have the mood.. hai hope i'll recover soon.. why the glumness? sigh probably it's because i've been rather dissapointed lately.. it's lyk i expected y.z to bring his hxxxr(er.. sumthin tht i was promised b4 and would hav made my day) on Tues, but he ponned schl tht day and tht got me down a little, and on Tues i asked agn if he could bring it on Wed. but he tod me no politely, and knowing myself, i got all worked up.. sigh.. why? although i feel dissapointed at him.. it doesn't mean i hav to get frustrated at all! i mean tht thing's not even mine and i'm getting angry at him for not bringing it? why? it's just my selfish nature, the one thing that blinds me in regarding other people's position, feelings and thoughts. so y.z i'm really sorry if i sounded angry at you on MSN even though i was hiding so much of it, i'm really sorry, u deserved better. besides this matter there were quite a few other things tht was quite enough to build up impatience in me to break me down like things tht were already planned but couldn't be worked out at the very last minute.. lyk tchr's day.. i really wanted to go back for the celebration to see all my old frens and tchrs, but it turns out tht there's a test tht's stoppin me.. and it starts at the sametime.. arghh. so very dissapointed. sigh.. tht's abt it.. all i can do now is sit and wait for tmr to pass..

yet when i talk to some people it calms me down=)

war!!

2005-08-23T21:22:00.000+08:00

School Affairs

Elliot: WARRR!!!
Reporter: Late this afternoon, President Elliot (the one with big ears and a long nose) declared war on VB (Very Boh-liao) Programming. When asked about the President’s motives of starting the war, the president released a statement saying that gathered intel strongly suggest that Weapons of Mass Destruction could be found hidden within the desserts of VB. But above that is another reason far more critical as an excuse for Elliot to initiate the war against the soon to be enemy: is that his country (the United Lands of Tau Huey-eww!!) have been living under intimidating shadows of V.B for far too long it’s been 6 months and still V.B has not loosen its grip of fear in the hearts of the people.

Ok.. enough of tht already.. but yes, I truly fear VB.. it’s killing me! abt half the class didn’t turn up 4 today’s lesson! Sigh too bad for me I have no more leaves to clear for VB neither am I sick enough to get an MC. oh chiang sisters, pls give me the sore eyes tht u have by next Tuesday so that I don’t have to face tht monster subj. agn.. it’s math is so deep, I’d get stuck at the 5th question! and my tchr would go round saying it’s so easy, once u’ve understand the formulas u can do engineering in uni.. ahh!! can’t stand it! he does this every week! But I must admit he pushes us very hard.. oh wells

Alright everyone take out your paper and pens and jot these few digits down, who noes? u may strike 4D with these them despite it being the seventh month (bah).. erhemm.. here goes.. On the 17th of August 2005 Elliot finally received his first A for module G105 (enterprise) yes after so many months of schooling Elliot has at last, received his first A in his entire poly life.. a remarkable accomplishment ladies and gentlemen.. okok I noe.. ppl lyk Grace has over 10 As’ for a single module.. but everyone has to start somewhere eh? Just tht I’m really really slow..

Home Affairs

Tiki the crab passed away peacefully on 2-8-2005 leaving behind loved ones
Buried on the 12th of August under the witness of Tim, Chan and Zhang
Body rests at Bukit Batok East Ave. 3 ( some where around there lah) near a fence before the bus stop

On a more serious note.. I think I’ve got this really short fuse tht blows whenever my mum lectures me.. man I’ve got to control it.. oh and a really serious issue happened last Sat. tht’s not worth putting up here, although I vowed to.. thnk God I didn’t.. i hope and pray tht I’ll have the ability to forgive.

Spaztic Affairs

ooh we have a new logo! Really nicely done by Dawn.. thnx! Can’t wait to scan it and put it up!! haha Fri dinner was great! but I still need to work on the guitar. we played untitled by simple plan together and all I played were the Cs’ Ds’ and Gs’ and zhang was like: wow elliot ur doin great!
haha! woohoo!

Today’s Affair’s

Wow today’s been quite an emotional roller coaster ride. In the mornin I felt guilty cuz I was really late 4 schl and I told myself the previous nite, tht I wouldn’t be late 4 schl any more. and then in the late morning/early afternoon I felt extremely lethargic (bcos it was vb) and a little high later in the afternoon. After schl I felt really xian on the way to JP and then at JP I felt vry cheeky, kept foolin arnd with snail and on the way home y.z brought my spirits up. at home I got mad at my mum cos she started scolding me agn (short fuse rmb?) and when I came on-line I felt extremely high (have no idea how tht happened) and later in the nite y.z felt really down.. and I felt for him too.. hai.. den after talking 4 a while he said he felt much better and so did i=)

Heart Affairs

Hmm.. learnt quite a bit over these two weeks.. pride is the one thing i must always rmb to put behind me yet it is the hardest.(and its not abt acting humble, tht’s an act of pride too.. I guess) To me pride blinds me frm so many things, things like other ppl’s feelings, other ppl’s fuses and usually it’s this kind of thing that can hinder a potential relationship with a friend. Many a times when boys get into fights or arguments, it’s mostly likely because one of them has hurt the other person’s ego and are all ready to defend their ‘face’. A slight remark abt the way they dress, the way his g.f looks, etc. can set his fists flying to your face in no time. Sadly I’m found guilty of this at times, only thing is I’d defend my ‘pride’ fiercely with words on real bad days. and recently I’ve been trying to tell my pride to stand down more often.

oh another crucial thing I learnt is tht when we encounter issues and problems and can’t find out what on earth went wrong, it’s ok! there are so many things tht can’t be explained, life’s tht way rite? who needs to find out what went wrong in order to move around the problem huh? No wonder I keep meeting dead blocks when facing my own problems. oh wells.. God always has a way out prepared for us.. doesn’t he?

(ee.. this entry might be hard to read and understand bcos i din read throgh it.. so.. apologies!)

good mornin^^!!

2005-08-17T21:59:00.000+08:00

Zao Tan!! haha juz woke up.. wierd huh? who ever takes a nap at 0730 and wakes up later 0945?! Harry Potter? haha wad's he got to do with anything? feel like choking him with a Ramly burger.. sigh wouldn't have woke up if not for my mum.. haha
feeling like super refreshed now! mm.. watermelons.. what could be better than cold, cubed freshly cut Water Melons? esp. those with the big black seeds i think they're sweeter.. yeah they're really nice
anyway, life's been fine lately, where's the fun in life when u feel down all the time huh? hmm.. so many people are falling sick lately all of a sudden hai.. and i'm not one of them.. xianzz.. i blame Harry Potter.. stupid guy=P
arghh!feeling super random.. maybe it's bcos i' getting tired or sumthin.. aniwai thnx everone 4 ur encouragements and zhang!! i think u got me wrong, u've got this time distorion error thing.. lan was much later than tht week i lost so many things haha worth it? i dunno leh.. yea maybe the tokin part but i'd happily forgo lan to get my hp back btw, i got my sim card back, but don't have a phone yet so replyin msgs would be vry lag.. yea. oh wells till i blog agn, and in the right mind the nxt time

oh yess!! to all the sec 4s'!! overcome ur stress! pray, pray and pray hard!! jia youz!!!

Lost Items

2005-08-08T17:26:00.000+08:00

hey, guess what's been happening? I've lost the three most valuable items i've ever owned, well not exactly, but it's just not here with me, so if u ask me, yes i'd definetly feel like something's missing and it's not a really nice feeling.. getting irritated very easily, trying to fight it still, and there's tht sudden feeling of emptiness, when u feel like doing something but just as you are abt to do it u remind urself tht u can't cos u dun have what u need to get it done, ahh.. yes the word is handicapped..
no.1 item tht's first to leave my presence was my phone.. lost it yesterday morning in the cab, I lost it for good after the 17th time, sigh tht's sad.. cos i was planning to lose it only after the 20th time, hahah anyway i've just started feeling the drawbacks of not having my phone with me, .. don't noe wad the nxt phone's going to be, not really excited to find out anyway..
no.2 item.. is my laptop.. 'surredered' it to Acer today for reapairs, did it very reluctantly,1st bad news the person across the counter delivered: 'u will have to at least wait until Wednesday to get ur computer fixed'.. i was like: 'oh man c'mon.. no..' and then later he told me that he would have to charge me for the damages, because their warranty does not cover physical damages, then i asked him if he could check the computer for viruses and bugs, and he said that Acer wasn't responsible for that too.. at that point i felt like asking him: then what on Earth does your warranty cover?! anyway.. i shrugged it all off by the time i got home
no.3 item tht i miss vry much is my mp3.. but it doesn't bother me as much as the other two, one reason is that i'm used to it after i lent it away to chan for the the whole week, and now i lending it to evan so tht i can hav even more songs in it.. sigh chan didn't noe how to add the songs.. will ad it myself the nxt time.. anyway i was supposed to borrow Chan's mp3 for this week but i 4got to ask him agn on Sun.
ooh.. i feel much better now.. not sure if i shld go kite flying tmr, part of me wants to go the other part of me is lazy and anti-social.. what's up with the mini-depression? go read the entry through one more time.

i'm glad i haven't lost my crab=)

2005-08-03T00:06:00.000+08:00

aargh!! blogspot really noes how to annoy ppl. with utmost professionalism, each time I go in there’s a different problem, this time I can’t directly add in a new entry, I’ve got to type it all out on Microsoft Word and paste it later. sigh~ it took 10 minutes to load up the create post page. anyway, i'm back with an entry! haha no suprise eh? anyway feeling very confused nowadays.. abt what? i have no idea.. it's not that i have any major issues at home or with any thing else, it's just that there are so many little thots buzzing around in my compact little skull. i just begun to realize tht most of my friends aren't exactly havin the time of their lives, and most of them u can't help, all u can do is to sit and listen.. hmm.. i guess tht works too.. heh.. anyway i've been having a little problems of my own too, and one thing's for sure, i need more discipline to study even harder and to start on my night class assignments! have to read the whole of the New Testament, and i haven't started><>

oh wells.. till nxt time!

gd mornin! *yawns~

2005-07-29T06:21:00.000+08:00

Good Mornin everybody from the blue horizons of Eugene's home. don't ask me how i landed up there.. ok maybe i'll tell u if u ask me personally.. hahah.. woah , i'm super tired.. dun even noe wad i'm doing up so early blogging away.. slept at 4 and woke up at 6.. not exactly very healthy for me especially when i have school later.. have absolutely no idea how i'm going to survive it, i think i'm going to try my best to pay attention to wat the teacher has to say, and going to snooze the rest of the day away! oh well.. no matter what, must pray for strength an that God can see me through the day~ and forgiveness as well..

alrite then.. good nite/mornin/bye everyone..

blessed~

2005-07-25T23:01:00.000+08:00

haha nvr expected to say this any time soon but i kind of feel rather blessed especially recently. I really thank God for a special friend, Yunus who through him God has taught me many lessons like how important our testimony is to us and how it can impact the people around you. and i'm also very grateful to God for putting a burden in me last night to make me want to attend the Night Class at FEBC on the New Testament!

haha today was our first class.. oh! did i 4get to mention? my mum was there too! yesterday when i told my mum tht i would be going for the classes i was shocked to learn tht she too had wanted to go! so we ended up taking the same course together today. aniwai it was my first time at Life Church, and pretty much everything's old fashioned and i don't know why.. i kind of liked it haha, the bookroom was fantastic! it was really old but it waas filled with books worth reading for a lifetime! during the interval i kept pressing my mum to sign us up for the course, she registered for the audit and i got her to sign me up for the credit which means i hav to take an exam at the end of it haha and Dr. Jeffery Khoo made a joke out of it by saying be ye doers of the word, and not hearers, so those doing the credit would recieve a double blessing than those taking audit, and i could see my mother go doh! in her mind but was blushin a little at the same time.. haha indeed this is going to be a blessing and i think i'm going to devote more time to God to make up for whatever time i've lost with him. ~To God be the Glory!

Crab Update: he/she(hmm i should give it a name eh? any suggestions?) has broken the 2 day curse of the evil vicious chef from Taka i don't know how it did it, but it just remains in it's plastic home eating chicken whenever it feels lyk it. i've begun walking the crab since it's 2nd week i'd just let it roam arnd for abt 10 mins everytime i change its water, today i let it out longer and it made it's way from my sister's room all the way out to the study room under the watchful eyes of my maid haha.. oh and 2day when we changed it's water we 4got 2 add salt to it=X we didn't realise until a while later and just realised it's pincer turned white agn=( aniwai it's getting bigger! so stay tuned for the further escapades of XXX the crab!!!

memories~

2005-07-19T10:59:00.000+08:00

aaaaaahaa~ memories runnin through my mind like a train passing through a station=p haha srry feeling very squirmish today..

hmm it all started on Sunday night after SGBF.. the usual three of us(chan, tim and me) went out for dinner with chan's parents.. had a few good laughs round the table and a hearty meal too=) after tht chan took 'leave' from his parents to walk me up to the bus stop along with Tim, and tht's when it all started.. haha we began singing junior worship songs and talked a lot about our childhood in JW and in sec 1 and 2 too! hahah doesn't sound like the things us boys (or men) *cough cough would do=P but it was splendid! by the time we reached the bus stop, i made it a point to miss 5 176 buses before going home but i ended up missing 7 176 buses, starting the count with zero... haha i'll miss those times! we talked about anything under the stars. we started off wondering where we would be without our pastors and the church as a whole.. waha! i love Calvary Pandan! haha.. i really do.. anyway some how or another we moved on to matters of the heart.. haha shan't elaborate more=P halfway throughout the whole thing we decided to move up to the reservoir to talk even more and out of the blue chan asked us to point out his flaws haha we did, and i got mine listed down too.. haha it felt wierd at first but it was good=) oh yes and there's this one golden rule Tim drilled in us.. dun change.. jus improve! yes we must keep and guard our personalities.. and along with that never ever regret if u want to remain happy.. cos wat's done is done, u can never go back and change things so just look up and move ahead! and ofcourse learn frm ur mistakes.. duh! haha i sound lyk my mother.. speaking of mothers we too talked about parents! haha.. although sometimes they may seem unbearable, we will never be able to return to them what they've given to us. so be nice to them k? haha we all wanted to go back to being little kids after tht nite~ no worries, no cares.. pure bliss and innocence sigh.. i left reluctantly after it was getting real late.. sigh~ i'm just waiting 4 the nxt time we can get together and talk late into the nite again and i hope this time, zhang can join us just lyk the very 1st time at the boon lay MRT haha.. i still remember!
*thnk God for family and friends=)

crab update: he/she's doing fine.. haha on monday his/her pincer turned white=X i think bcos it did't get food for lyk 2 days and it didn't like the pork i gave it haha anyway this morning it's colour returned to a pale orange.. thnx to chicken! hmm u see.. chicken does wonders!

my little crab=)

2005-07-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

Fri's concert was good=) we even wished L.T a blessed B'day after she conducted her piece and we could hear some ppl. frm the back go ooh! haha i just thot the whole thing was cool..

hmm.. before the concert me and chan met at Taka for dinner b4 the concert, and it was there where i bought my $1 pet, guess what it is.. it's a crab!! yep a little crab which according to Joy looks half cooked and ready to eat, bcos it's legs and pincers are all red, but it's main shell is black, haha i think it looks cool. it's a small one though, it's width is no longer than your index finger but it's real fast. it escaped today. when i came home Y.F i went to my room to check on my crab and true enough, it wasn't in it's container. i had no idea how it got out, but it did.. me, my sis and my maid searched all over the room for it, but we just couldn't find the sneaky little critter and so we gave up, but in the back of our minds we knew that there was a crab running around the house and if my mum found it, we'd be all dead.. or if the crab were dead.. it'll stink up the house, anyway 15 mins later the crab decided to make known it's precense in front of my sister in the store room.. haha she scream so loud, i think it stunned the crab, oh well.. it's back to where it belongs, i hope it doesn't intend to escape again cos if it does.. i'll hope some lizard gobbles it up so tht it doesn't just die and leave it's body to rot in one small corner and cause the place to smell, haha i don't even noe why i decided to save it from the chef's blade when he gave it only 2 more days to live.. haha sounds lyk my crab's got cancer..

i think this entries is just completely boh liao.. haha but it's all true oh wells till i blog non-sense agn!

wahoo!

2005-07-11T14:04:00.000+08:00

i'd just lyk to start off with a big HAPPY B'DAY J.KHOR & L.T!! well soon enough haha aniwai i hope u guys hav a blessed blessed B'day.

haha yea aniwai everything's pretty much returned back to normal=) homis more peaceful and warm now but the house rules are still there to keep me in place. haha yep. sigh i'm startin to miss my dad, real badly!><

hmm week's been pretty good.. especially the weekend! on Sat. i went to play bball as usual but this time i decided to run after the game and so i did.. it was the worst run ever.. b4 tht i alreadi almost crammed my leg muscles and on the way i had to drink half a bottle of warm, slightly sour milk before having to decide to throw it away so for the whole at least 3/4s' of the run, i was limping and farting at the same time, my.. what a sight.. i shall not go into specifics, if u want, call me b4 dinner haha!

Sun was real good, got as much spiritual blessings as fun! SGBF was real good! well at least to me, haha really thankful tht i didn't go home because if i did, wouldn't go for it.. Dr. Jeffery Khoo talked abt he's call to service and it reminds me of a certain someone in Y.F haha yeah btw i think he preaches almost as similairily as Rev. Quek! had lunch at Jack's Place at West Coast for Joanne's and L.T's B'day celebration.. haha went locco there! my steak plate was unrecognisable by the time i was done! and after lunch the restaurant became our playground! besides everybody else had left.. Joyce and Lau suprised us with a cake.. as if the meal wasn't ex enough! haha but we could see the effort put into it haha i guess it was very much appreciated=) Joyce made Joanne open her prezzie in front of us but it was nicee j.khor was kind enuf to read out the captions and i guess it brought back memories for some of us.. haha after tht i got tau poked in the restaurant.. can u believe tht? a tau pok took place in a internationally recognised restaurant! oh man this going down in my list of crazy things haha. had our photos taken and am waiting for the photos to get here=p we couldn't get a dao photo rite cuz we just kept laughing so i guess most of 'em were very much candid shots. left for home soon after tht, accompanied Lau and the twins back home and left for SGBF after tht. sigh.. it all ended so quickly.. we shld do this more often!

i'm sorry

2005-07-04T13:51:00.000+08:00

my cold hard sigh..
i look up at her..
deep breathing.
i see a warm tear
trickle down her cold cheek..

i think to myself.. the war must end here.. i'm SORRY mother.. i've been a terrible son.

hmms

2005-06-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

(srry if this entry sounds a little constipated, cos my maid's bathing and my mum's locked the door aniwai this entry's gonna be short so no worries=)

aaargh! it's only Wednesday.. xian. 1st week of school is always the longest.. sigh. lot's of things to do.. haha I finally fished my testimony! woohoo! it's all done! all it needs now is lots and lots of editing, unlike the entries in my blog, the most i'd read through them once only, other than that it doesn't go through any editing at all.. haha anyway I can't wait for the weekend! tht's how boring the week has been. lessons this semester seem to be more dull, but tht's the way it shld be i guess, heh i'm not crazy, i just think it's easier to learn this way, i dun really lyk those violently dyanamic lessons, they're too distracting and fast, it's hard to catch the jist of the lesson 9although i enjoy it lots). anyway i think i can learn even if the lessons seems dull it's whether i want to pay attention or not.. i think frm tmr onwards I'm going to actually listen to what the teacher has to say.
hmm.. i dunno why i'm saying this but i think MRT rides are fun! they ARE actually joy rides! haha only if u go in with a grp of frens ofcourse. it's always there and then tht i let loose! dun believe me? go ask yong zhi and tristain! they've seen me laugh all the way frm Orchard to Jurong East! and mimick certain membes of the silly public. hmm.. i seem to talk more fluent and often in trains too! haha i still remember tht nite when we were supposed to return home from zhang's place, instead we took an MRT to Jurong when Chan out of the blue asked: hey wanna ride up to Boon Lay? and we were lyk: hey, why not? since we were already cliqueing very well and so we did! haha when we got there we talked for abt 5 trains worth of time and took the train back down to Jurong. boy those were the days! haha we'd talk abt anything! yr long crushes, yrs long crushes for one us(haha *looks at zhang, oops=p), and my lousy and sloppy sense of dressing haha we were all hopeless but happy! haha.. oh wells tht was quite some time already haha till nxt time!

i need to go use the toilet now><

hellos everyone!

2005-06-24T04:20:00.000+08:00

the reason why i haven't been bloggin lately is bcos of the hols! haha too occupied.. aniwai it's been one of the best ones i ever had, could hav been better if i were a teen, heard tht this yr's teenz retreat was fantabulous! haha all i rmb of it was the few hours the J1s' were there to conduct the object lessons.. din enjoy torturin the teenz a single bit, i was vry scared the way some ppl reacted btw.. i wasn't the one doing the torturing, it was zhang, haha, suprised? i think he over did it a little, so much so he 4got 2 play the role i gave him.. aniwai after the whole thing i was totally traumatised and freaked out.. at first i thot: oh no.. wad hav i done? i've made them pretty mad. wad am i goin to do? but after everythin Yeda told me not to wrry because the teenz would look back on hindsight and say: hey, it wasn't all tht bad, aniwai there was a lesson behind it t learn from. (oh wells i hope they see it tht way..)

hmm.. let me update u briefly abt my 3 week holiday.. the 1st week i went for my 1st ever church camp and it was quite fun but i guess there were quite a few personal lessons i had to learn frm it and oh yeah Dr. Quek started a new trend of jacking Eld Foong, right Eld Foong? aha yeah tht's church camp in a nutshell.. i spent the whole of the 2nd week out of the house and wif the spaztic bro. and some of the other lovely people, can't rmb much.. too many things happened tht week.. oh yeah i watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith with Eugene, caught up wif him. quite satisfied, tht day=) oh yeah and did i mention? we went to Sentosa on tht same week and it was fun! it started out really really slow but things started to turn out well after lunch. we went cycling after tht.. at 1st it was fun wif the suspension bikes but after tht i had to ride wif Joyce and boy was it tough man! i salute lau 4 riding her the full hour the last time u guys went to Sentosa .. haha worse thing was when we were rushin back to the bicycle station and tht i took a wrong turn straight into the stables.. boy did it stink! oh yeah i still rmb Chan riding the bike completely without hands.. he was lyk cycling beside me and taking his bottle out of his bag, taking off the cap, drinking down the water, srewing the cap back on and slipping it back into his bag.. the whole time he was paddling without having to use his hands. tht to me was shock and awe my friend.. haha i also rmb evan falling off her bike twice the 2nd time i was lyk d'oh not again! and all she did was to laugh after the fall.. once again my friend shock and awe.. and dora is such a slow rider=p haha oh wells it was fun! after the treacherous journey back to the bicycle station we headed straight for the kayaks, it was the 1st time for me and chan and it really makes me wonder, hoo was the genius who paired up 2 newbies together? oh yeah, tht's right it was me! aniwai u could imagine how hard it was for us to synchronize our paddling, so in the end we gave up and decided to juz have some fun so we raced dora and evan to one end of the beach to capsize our kayaks it took quite some time for me and chan to get back onto the kayaks but for the twins watchin them getting up the boat was lyk watchin them tryin to climb up Mt. Fuji! it took them at least 15min. to get up on the boat again. later on, we met joyce and lau(the J boat, i'd lyk to call it) and the 3 of us decided to race.. so me and Chan were vry excited and immediately we paddled furiously frm the beach to the bouy thing.. we were 1st to reach there! and when the J boat caught up wif us Lau was lyk congratulations u've made it to the starting line.. by then all my energy was drained off.. the actual race begun and obviously we were left behind for the last place, haha anyway half way the J-boat capsized half way and Joyce was freakin out, at 1st it was quite funny but then it started to get more real.. and i think it was chan who had to go and 'rescue' her.. haha but it was quite funny watching Joyce getting scared of drowning with her life vest on, i was lyk dotzz.. anyway it didn't all end after Sentosa.. we later left for dinner at Harbour Front, had an interesting talk abt the scavenger hunt the teenz comm. were preparing for the trip to Ubin.. it was there where learnt frm Chan tht the mysterious creature in Lost was a p**** ***r!!! i mean, wad's a ***a* *e** doing in a forest man! wad's it been eating all these yrs? u can't exactly find sardines in the middle of a jungle! aniwai tht's wad we did for the whole of Thursday.. on the last week i tuned it down a little, was asked to stay at home more often an so i did.. the onli day i didn't go out was on Mon. the rest of the days i was out on short trips and not too far away frm home.. oh, and on Tues we sent my dad off to Italy for abt 10 months.. sigh miss him already.. on wed i was out to help out wif the object lessons *points up to the 1st paragraph.. hmm yep.. there u have it! the highlights of my mid-term holidays

aniwai schl's openin in 3 days time! noo! elliot stop yelling! ahhh! i sure can use 1 more week but then again i have no more cash left and everyone would be back mugging away in school and I need to start studyin too!

2005-06-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

Sentosa was sooo fine=p

niceee..

2005-06-13T00:31:00.000+08:00

haha this has been seen once on my blog before but i think its 'worthy' enough to be published on my blog again haha anyway it's something to add colour to my blog, haha hope i'll be updating soon. so ladies and gentle men i present to you a little something from the smoke jumper:
If I be the first of us to die,
Let grief not blacken long your sky.
Be bold yet modest in your grieving.
There is a change but not a leaving.
For just as death is part of life,
The dead live on forever in the living.
And all the gathered riches of our journey,
The moments shared, the mysteries explored,
The steady layering of intimacy stored,
The things that made us laugh or weep or sing,
The joy of sunlit snow or first unfurling of the spring,
The wordless language of look and touch,
The knowing,
Each giving and taking,
These are not flowers that fade,
Nor trees that fall and crumble,
Nor are they stone,
For even stone cannot the wind and rain withstand
And mighty mountain peaks in time reduce to sand.
What we were, we are
What we had, we have
A conjoined past imperishably present.
So when you walk the woods where once we walked
together
And scan in vain the dappled bank beside you for my
shadow,
Or pause where we always did upon the hill to gaze
across the land,
And spotting something, reach by habit for my hand,
And finding none, feel sorrow start to steal upon you,
Be still.
Close your eyes.
Breathe.
Listen for my football in your heart.
I am not gone but merely walk within you.

*a little update before u leave and return after like a thousand years hmm.. life's been a little dull and down but everytime before I hit the mud someone picks me up, it's like he's keeping an eye out for me although i deserve to bite the dust, which sometimes he allows it to happen to remind and teach a well-deserved lesson. haha all in all it's been a bitter-sweet experience, hope i'm learning from it haha.

oh, church camp's at Awana, totally stoked!!

tense..

2005-06-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

ever felt like everybody around you is irritating in one way or another and you just feel like snapping at them and giving them a piece of your mind.. i think tht's wad happened after the cottage meeting.. at 1st i felt left out and then i was left out.. makes sense doesn't it turnin nasty.. and ppl. start avoidin u.. hai emotions were runnig wild on the way home frm Elvin's place din really noe how to show my feelings, so i put up a bluff so tht i didn't affect the others.. i finally lost it when my mum gave me a lecture the minute she came into contact with her.. i mean wat she said was true but it wasn't exactly the best time to do it.. oh well i'm out.. b4 i say things tht i'll regret later..

hey!

2005-05-27T11:42:00.000+08:00

hullo! i'm back to clear out the cobwebs once again.. is this place dusty or what? hmm.. can't wait for the holidays! they are one of the best days of school! haha these holidays would be much needed hopefully it would keep me away from this computer.. hai.. spendin too much time on it. aargh!! so many ppl I want to go out with but still haven't ask them yet! oh, and i can't wait for chuch camp haha.. and Sentosa! I really dun mind goin there for a full day, in the mornin we'll visit the 'forests', swim in the day, bike and canoe in the evening and have a barbecue in the nite! and since it's so late might might as well go and see the musical fountains in the nite and fall asleep under the stars.. on the nxt day we'll meet the others who couldn't make it and live through the previous day all over again!! haha i'm such a dreamer.. i'm just waiting to watch Madagascar with the gang.. sumthins tellin me tht this would be one of the best June holidays ever! oh well, till then, Peace Out!

Poly Whirl

2005-05-12T15:47:00.000+08:00

wow things in Poly move so fast it's hard not to change( but that will come later) all of a sudden ppl's true colours become more obvious, people become less gentlemanly, some just sit around and slack, and tht really annoys me especially when there's grp work involved it's so frustrating! sigh.. oh wells this kinda thing is very much expected to happen.

hmm.. lots of things are not the same.. my taste of music, my dressing sense and my thinking.. i dunno but the way i think is really wierd rite now but dun worry it's stable, i hav a better sense of my own limits rite now, i noe when enuf is enuf hmm.. and i think i take other ppl's feelings more seriously now haha oh wells.. we'll talk about music some other time, err.. dressing hmm.. let's see i think i see fashion in a new light now haha but i'm no fashion diva of some sort it's just tht i'm a little more conscience about the way I look now.. haha it's common rite? anyway there's this big thing tht's in my way.. it's called the lack of money and i'd also lyk to blame the GST hike.. oh well gtg b4 i fail my module.. seeya=)

another update..

2005-05-10T15:11:00.000+08:00

i've been waking up late laetely(haha sounds funny.. nvm) today i blew it, i woke up at the exact same time when class started.. i didn't feel like goin to school at all but I guess my conscience caught up with me ad i decided to go to school evantually. got to schl 1hr late but fortunately the facillitator was forgiving but i was considered partially present and I think that's going to affect my grade today.. aniway have no idea but i'm feelin quite high in school but very stone at home and in lessons=P i gotta pay more attention in class sigh tmr gt a big test, don't want to take it, needs too much energy sigh.. i'll go home and TRY to study for it, i hope i don't get tired and lose focus or get distracted by friends who want to play CS, can't afford to fail this test or i'll hav to retake the module during the holidays and i dun want tht to happen><

hmm nuthin much happened this past week, schl's gettin tough. and i got a chance to catch up with Chee Chang.. yeah talked about a lot of stuff found out a lot abt army and Singapore's 'defence' capabilities and tht NS involves lots of waiting aniwai i learnt tht remaining single isn't tht bad.. so i think i'll wait longer haha usually i wouldn't show this side of me on my blog haha but Tim says i shld go for it for the experience especially when there's the oppurtunity. haha gotta giv it more thot oh well gotta go now.. until nxt time..

harlo!

2005-05-06T13:12:00.000+08:00

heh it's been quite some time since I last blogged, a lot's happened since then, hmm.. let's see.. my B'day just passed i bought quite a few stuff, Tim came back for a while, the spastic bro. has come up with an ambitous saving money plan and I also met my long 'lost' cousins at my grandad's B'day party. anh oh yeah! i'm goin out shopping at orchard with my schl frens for the 1st time! and their nice ppl! not tht the rest aren't.. it's juz tht these ppl. are easier to clique with.. haha i think every1 in my class are nice guys! (haha we shall see) hmm mother's day is round the corner and my fren wants to get sharks fin for our mums haha i think he's nuts oh well it's cheaper if 3 of us buy it together so.. hai thot of gettin sumthin different 4 my mum this yr and tht costs money! haha i've been feelin a little cheery lately but i think it's wearin off oh wells.. it's then tht my true colurs come out.. haha gotta get back to today's lesson b4 the teacher cathes me! and oh yeah! i'm gettin a change of template.. gettin 2 actually but same rules apply: simple and sweet.. oh well.. seeya! CHEERS!

Grrrr!!

2005-04-26T07:05:00.000+08:00

aaaaaaaaaaarrrggghhh!!! I am so very angry with my parents! wad did I do wrong? and now u want to take my handphone away for 1 week?! how hard must I fight to prove to you that I am not at all at fault? aargh! I can't stand it any more it looks like the more I avoid home the less trouble I get into but I don't want to do that, I want to stay at home and study like everyone else but it just looks like every time I am at home I'll get it from them.. every single waking hour its like this and they expect me to do well under their unreasonable conditions? I don't want to make war with them, I really don't but do I just sit down and watch them vent their anger from work on me? All I want to do is set things straight.. I don't want to argue for the sake of argueing really, I have you parents in my heart really.. it's just thtsometimes things get really unreasonable around here and and i need to vent it out some how, yes I have feelings too you know, I don't just sit there taking your blows without a proper reason and wait for you to finish without saying a word, I feel things in case you haven't already known and it's not always anger ok? I don't hate them.

(although this entry is written mainly for my parents pls dunn tell them abt it or it would be the last entry of my life)

mending the holes

2005-04-19T12:51:00.000+08:00

ok.. i've got another shot at this.. not gonna screw it up lyk i used to.. but 1st i gotta set things rite with God.. yes.. turning back to Him never felt soo good.. frm now on he'll be the 1st person i'll turn to when i meet with difficulties and trials for wisdom and for strength..

i'd better get my friendship with Julian back on track..(yes Julian ur number 1) srry for not being there for u most of the time and i promise i'll stop giving u my left over time and start catching up with u.. and Samuel too.. hope u'd 4give me for dissapearing for a year and a half.. i owe u serious talk time.. we started rite let's end this thing rite too! to chan i'll stop being so sacarstic around u and zhang i'll be more serious and less sensitive.. srry abt wad happened at Orchard last week.. wasn't in a good mood.. eugene.. i promise i'll stop hiding stuff.. looks lyk there are gonna be more 1a.m coffee sessions at Caltex frm now on=) and also to evan.. i'll stop probing.. promise! hmm.. joanne? don't wanna change a thing! and joyce we gotta talk more we keep gettin interrupted.. hai.. oh and looks lyk i can't run away forever.. Russell.. i'm srry.. i've been mean to u at times and u have my biggest apology.. i wanna make it up to u.. real sorry..

and to the ppl. i've caused most injustice to.. my parents.. i've realized tht i've been biting the very hands tht feed me( u see mum, i dun 4get the things u tell me=) i'm gonna change things round here 4get abt my job.. i'll settle it later.. it's not gonna be easy but it's worth the fight..

and as for me? let's just settle the rest 1st.. and so i pray for strength guidance from the most high God above..

lookin back

2005-04-18T20:39:00.000+08:00

i look back and wow is tht the damage i caused? and i look at myself and i'm not tht far off either.. honestly i haven't been managing the 'people relations' real well.. it's mostly bcos i haven't been listenin 2 God all tht often and i've become stray thinkin tht i can survive on my own.. and look now wad i ended up with.. O Lord help this battered and lost soul.. i wanna come back home now..

Everytime

2005-04-16T13:17:00.000+08:00

Simple Plan- Everytime

It was 3am

When you woke me up

Then we jumped in the car

And drove as far as could go

Just to get away

We talked about our lives

Until the sun came up

Now I'm thinking about

How I wish I could go back

Just for one more day

One more day with you

Everytime I see your face

Everytime you look my way

It's like it all falls into place

Everytrhing feels right

But ever since you walked away

You left my life in disarray

All I want is one more day

It's all I need

One more day with you

When the car broke down

We just kept walking along

'Til we hit this town

There was nothing there at all

But that was all ok

We spent all our money on stupid things

But if I look back nowI'd probably give it all away

Just for one more day

One more day with you

Everytime I see your face

Everytime you look my way

It's like it all falls into place

Everything feels right

Ever since you walked away

Left my life in disaray All I want is one more day

All I need is one more day with you

Now I'm sitting here

Like we used to do

I think about my life

And how there's nothing I won't do

Just for one more day...

One more day with you

Everytime I see your face

Everytime you look my way

It's like it all falls into place

Everything feels right

Everytime I hear your name

Everytime I feel the same

It's like it all falls into place

Everything feels right

You walked away

Just one more day

It's all I need

Just one more day with you

free flowing thots..

2005-04-13T15:27:00.000+08:00

wow i actually survived the afternoon shift haha it's supposed to be a long day for me, working frm 12-5 and 6-10, surviving on 2 pies and a sandwiche in the morning. i've been quite positive today probably it's bcos i'm not the only one with a long day today, Chan's got schl till 6 and i heard Evan just started extra classes. oh well won't be home till 10+. i hope i dun get hugry frm now till the time i get back.. won't be eating till then.. the reason for not eating is bcos i need to save mooney for Friday's evening it's Tim's farewell dinner at a Chinese Restaurant before he goes into NS. sigh i'm gonna miss him lots.. ok this sounds so gay.. but tht's besides the point.. the usual 4 of us are goin.. and i can't wait for it! and oh yeah guess wat? i'm goin 4 th Family Church Camp! it'll be my 1st time and it's been quite long since i left this country, well my parents won't be able to make it so i'll be sharing a room with Chan and it's gonna be fun! sigh got the feeling tht the chef's arnd here are bullying me, but it's fun cuz i get to whack them back! =P haha their so fun to make fun of bcos if u scold them in English they won't noe it.. and i'm pretty sure tht they won't want to noe. haha oh today in the kitchen the chef made cut toes of chicken feet and it was disgusting! the toes were strewn all over the floor and i had to step over them yuck! at first i was smashing the frozen feet rather than chopping them with the knife.. in the end i guess the chef finally gave up on me bcos i was too messy and slow.. well at least i went beyond the call of duty of a waiter and i still hav my finger with me.. don't if i'll be working here for long, poly starts on Monday.. tht's if my parents allow me to go and if they don't.. tht means i'm America bound, i'll be both happy and sad , going there means a new way of life, meeting a different kind of ppl. but leaving also means leaving a wonderful grp of ppl. here, leaving a family and leaving a history that has become such a huge part of me now.. so i pray to god for wisdom to overcome this great uncertainty, to see his will for me and to accept it. oh well got to get back to work.. everyone's busy except me so hang on to see the thots that go on behind a waiter's smile=)

reflections

2005-04-11T08:30:00.000+08:00

like the inflated ulcer my period of sadness has downsized.. maybe it all started when guilt caused me to turn around to look at the pieces of me that I left behind and realized tht they too were looking at me out from the dark maybe tht explains the wierd sense of guilt i was feeling.. the past telling me over and over again not to make the same mistakes.. i guess i shrugged it off all too easily tht's why i'm lookin back now or maybe it's tht false perception of injustice tht i'd like to paint for myself and now realizing the mess tht i got myself into..

well, i guess these things are kinda unavoidable and hard to explain tht personality grows through mild adversity.. the lesson i learnt? try for once not to run away from the past look back and see what it has to tell you..

feeling better=)

insecure..

2005-04-06T09:49:00.000+08:00

here's wad goes on in the backroads of an insecure person's mind.. it is sitting alone in a house during the quiet afternoon hours.. wondering why the phone won't ring, wodering what happened to your 'real' friends. it longing for someone to talk to, soul to soul, but thinking tht there is no such person worthy of your trust.. or it is tht feeling tht they wouldn't like me if they knew the real me.. it is becoming terrified to talk to a grp of ur peers, and feeling lyk a fool when u get home. it is wondering why other ppl. have so much more talent and ability than you do. it is admittingthat you have become a failure as a student as a person.. it is disliking everything abt urself and wishing, constantly wishing you could be someone else. it is feeling unloved and unlovable, lonely and terribly sad.. it is lying in bed after everyone's asleep.. pondering the vast emptiness tht's inside and longing for unconditional love. it is intense self pity and more than anything else insecurity is the root cause of depression..

Noodle Wars

2005-04-05T08:45:00.000+08:00

Noodle Wars..
2005, April, 4th war was declared between the two super powers of Noodle Hut.. Idiot(Elliot) and Loser(Zhang) were seen mobilising their troops late into the afternoon shift as tension grew.. intelligent reports conclude tht the war was in fact determined by bowls of LaMien operatives in the area say tht the two world leaders were in fact fighting for work.. they were seen stealing orders frm each other and rushing to get bowls of La Mien out of the kitchen b4 the enemy could do anything.. they were even seen competing in the drying of plates but Zhang soon pulled out when he saw tht it would not be worth th fight.. in the middle of the nite shift negotiations were made possible.. it was argued tht an idiot would be more likely to make it in life than a loser or vice versa.. zhang argued tht at least the loser would try his best and thus will be more successful than an idiot who would be too stupid to do anything.. but i argued tht both sides would be on parr in life.. both would be just as unsuccessful in life the only difference is tht a loser would have to put in his best effort to reach the already low state of an Idiot.. obviously both parties could not come to a peaceful conclusion and with failed negtiations fighting continued temporarily but soon both grew battle weary so both stopped to talk abt CS and later went back to fighting.. at the end of the day the Idiot came up with a ultimate solution at the end of the nite.. most unlikely.. but anyway..he gave the scenario tht if the two challenged each other in an I.Q test guess hoo'd lose? it's only logical tht the loser would lose HAH! in ur face! LOSER! haha all in good fun.. well tht marked the end of a really long war.. until nxt time!

bum..

2005-03-30T09:37:00.000+08:00

wow, i'm super tired rite now.. had a long day yesterday but i'll miss it.. after a gruelling 4 hours of work me zhang and chan met at lot1 and me and chan got treated to coffee bean! haha thnx zhang! aniwai we met a few of the seniors.. J.Q, Timmy, Johan and later Lisa.. hmm.. and after tht we went to go play X-box it was kinda retarded cos me and Chan played Metal Slug 4 when we could have played FIFA or NBA but no.. we had to play spastic games lyk Collin McaeRally, Metal Slug 4, The Gotham Project and watever non-sense. oh well.. after tht we left to buy bread for Zhang.. and on the way i dropped by to say hi to a good old friend working at Kiddy Palace.. oh well after tht we made our way down to zhang's place to just chill and stone.. had pizza for dinner and watched Taxi.. we left at 9 and walked to the interchange.. fooled around at first but soon got down to buisness.. hmm define buisness? i dunno.. things important to us.. watever it is.. we talked for quite a while.. we talked frm Choa Chu Kang to Jurong East and from there to Boon Lay.. missed 2 trains and made our way back down to Jurong East.. yes we are a bunch of nothing to do people who enjoy nothing more than talking under the stars.. or MRT ceilings actually anyway got home late and got toasted for it and also for losing my dad's credit card.. oh well.. till i blog again! oh yeah Timmy u'll never noe what'll hit u on 16 Apr!

one big sigh..

2005-03-28T09:18:00.000+08:00

nothing.. it's all i feel.. nothingness.. i look back nothing.. i turn and look ahead nothing.. tht' all i am.. now i'm asked to make decision whether or not to go to America for good.. but i've no mood to think about it.. sigh feeling very self destructive now.. can just feel myself falling apart.. nothing's going rite and everything's a mess i don't know wat to do rite now..

yawn..

2005-03-26T09:34:00.000+08:00

yawn.. oh no i'm probably gonna fall asleep during Y.F.. haha not lyk i want to.. juz predicting.. slept real late last nite probably abt 3a.m talking with Julian and woke up 9:15 and tht's a little early for me but i can't help it cuz tim and eugene are comin real soon.. the only thing tht's keeping me awake are the sounds of Spandau Ballet: True.. hmm dunno why but i kinda startin to lyk drums a lot.. hmm must be the works of Maroon 5.. haha i dunno.. sigh long day might be goin down to Timmy's house to continue my further studies in POOL! haha and after tht basketball! i need to train more i'm sooo rusty.. i hope Yong Hwee comes need to see how he shoots..then again he might be rusty to.. haven't see him play for quite a while.. oh wells it'll be quite a miracle if i survive Y.F.. maybe i shld go steal some sleep b4 the 2 twits come over.. haha seeya!

diao..

2005-03-24T14:49:00.000+08:00

can u believe it tht i left the house without my specs?.. had to go through half of the day half blind.. and i was this close to getting contact lenses frm the spectacle shop next door sigh.. oh yeah i did i tell u.. Maroon 5 rocks! she will be loved is the absolute must listen to song and shiver is real good too.. i lyk their drummer and the lead singer has a unique voice.. i juz luv it! harder to breathe is the type of song u wouldn't lyk at 1st but after a while it gets quite catchy and i noe chan lyks to sing it when is friend with body odour is around.. haha ok its evil actually.. aniwai Sunday Mornings one of my favourites.. this love is only fun when u sing along with it.. and Must Get Out is my favourite!! haha i think this entry is kinda pointless haha.. oh wells gtg

la~

2005-03-21T20:58:00.000+08:00

hmm.. feeling much better now.. aniwai 2 day was my 1st day workiing at noodle hut! and yup it's the same branch as zhang! it's not tht bad.. besides the fact tht i can't really listen, read or speak chinese all tht well.. it's kinda slack but when it gets busy.. it gets real busy.. and 2day i dropped 5 items from my tray: 3 cups, 1 chilli cap and a plate.. hmm. looks lyk it's gonna take longer than expected for me to become a world class professional waiter.. unlike the so unprofessional me.. zhang was handling 5 la mien bowls abt 3 or more and i think 3 beer mugs all in 1 round tray.. and i was lyk woah.. poor him he's still working now.. haha
aniwai guess wat? he lent me his ipod! haha.. i guess i'm obsessed wah i've been listenin to it throughout the nite until the batt. went flat.. hmm.. and after 1 day of usin it i concluded tht generally an ipod would not be good for me.. why? because for 1 it hurts my ears ifi leave those dreadful things in my ears.. no.2 each time i borrow it i've gotta help burn 1 CD worth of songs for zhang, thirdly it has Simple Plan songs which i luv but are darn sad and sometimes make me think back.. and wanna cry(hmm.. sounds wierd.. but tht's wad i am wad..) and lastly it got me addicted to music! i can't stop downloadin now.. hmm.. despite all these negative effects i dun mind borrowin it for life! :)

hope?

2005-03-19T09:51:00.000+08:00

Hope is a beautiful thing
But what it is.. do we know?
Is it that thing that keeps us going
Even without us knowing?

Or is it shooting blankly in space
and later finding that life's one big nothing
how then do we keep surviving?
Do we throw away the past
and let time die like the rose in a vase
will it then be possible to carry on?

i guess there's no use hiding from your history
or it'll make u one big mystery
So start out with what you're left with
and set your sights on other things
and when darkness will fall
you can put a new hope back on the wall..

me and my non-sense

2005-03-16T21:17:00.000+08:00

aaargh!! missed the Sentosa trip!! aaargh!! ok nvr mind.. had a real bad start frm the wee hours of the morning had a real long face frm 6a.m-5p.m.. i even tried to fake fatigue.. now i'm lyk how on earth was i supposed to pull tht off? aniwai by 4p.m i was kinda of tired of putting up a fight with my parents.. so i stopped resisting and limited myself to only feeling angry.. it was a real long day and it had to start early.. then i started realizing the situation through my parents eyes
they needed help but i was putting up such a big fight.. sigh.. but any way i was really really angry with my parents at tht time i almost felt like cryin.. but thankfully zhang picked up my distress call and actually managed to talk to me.. i really needed tht someone to talk to.. thnx man u saved my life.. haha any way lookin forward to tmr's dinner IF i'm goin..

oh yeah.. and b4 i go.. i'd lyk to thank josh 4 takin charge of today's stuff.. heard tht it was fun ya see u dun need to plan much when u to go to Sentosa.. and timmy for still goin after i bailed out and also a big thank you to zhang for bein there when i needed u.. thnx guys!

conspiracy

2005-03-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

aargh.. there is conspiracy running through the blood of the spastic brothers.. ok.. seriously.. timmy is not exactly happy with the 3 of us (me, chan and zhang) seems like some how we breached his trust but it looks like none of us has anything to do with it.. anyway we're having a conference call tonite to settle everything once and for all.. this thing's gone on for far too long already..

anyway today's the 1st day i went down tomy mum's new cafe and kind of realised tht i'll be working there temporarily for $20 a day.. not much isn't it but it's enough to buy a new piece of clothing everyday! haha.. guess who i met there today.. Adrian! yup! apparantly he was on his way to see his doctor and happened to walk by the cafe and it also happened to be tht my mum knew his doctor.. so we had lunch together accompanied with a qucik chat.. it's a small world isn't it? anyway i suddenly had the urge to create a friendster account for our clique but it doesn't seem to be the rite time now.. anyway it isn't early any more.. gotta go now.. until nxt time!

slack..

2005-03-03T09:22:00.000+08:00

after 'surveying' SP, i had a chill out sessionwith chan and Tim, we had a real late lunch and after that we visited the library to study .. well, not exactly.. but actually to help J.chan in his chemistry.. not that he's completely stupid, it's just that he's partially stupid.. ok i'm srry.. but when i see him try to learn chem i sometimes see myself in him when i study.. haha dun worry that's not a bad thing Chan.. in fact u should be very honoured! oh man i should stop praising myself like that.. ok anyway iwas actually quite satisfied with the trip down to the library and i actually realized how much i missed studying.. hey doesn't that sound kinda ironic? Huh? don't you think so? Ofcourse it is! as i said before, i'm not the study type..

haha anyway after that we went down to Chan's nest to chill.. played this real stupid game, called Vietcong and made these real stupid mistakes that had the three of us laugh our brains out our nose.. ok.. that doesn't sound rite.. but u get the point.. (stupid mistakes like shooting the seargent in my training sessions and having to start the whole game again and after that killing innocent vietnamnese villagers to test their endurance and stabbing the village chief by accident and even wanderin round the whole forest looking for 1 measly sniper only to find out from my captain that he'd escaped 10min. ago.. stupid mistakes include stepping onto landmines and after thaat stepping on the same ones at the exact same spot.. and after all that i killed the whole team after i got fed up of stepping on mines that i can't even see..) and as tim said: it was a stupid game with a real stupid player anyway after that great 'adventure' all 3 of us were just lazing around and listening to chan's 'album'.. i kinda got to like some of them and am waiting 4 him to to send them to me.. aniwai that was about it for my real lazy evening.. sigh.. i still have that burning feeling of regret thnx to my lousy results and i think i quite deserve it.. sigh.. and was kinda thinkin: elliot's stupidity: a series of unfortunate results..

stomach gone gnarly..

2005-02-28T09:15:00.000+08:00

arghh.. another day past.. and today's the day.. it's no point running and hiding isn't it? i don't know.. i juz feel real cold rite now.. i seriously need some one to talk to.. keep on feeling tht life ends after 2p.m today.. arghh!! this thing's killing me.. i guess i got myself stuck in a moment and i just can't get out.. i feel lyk crying all of a sudden with my tears building up and not wanting to leave me.. sigh.. all i can do is wait and let time pass..

aww..

2005-02-14T10:16:00.000+08:00

haha yesterday watched Shallow Hal and it was aww.. so sweet haha actually i didn't want to see it at all. i was like.. sigh nuthin to do: no computer no phone no games to play and the t.v had little to offer and shallow hal seemed soo boring but i had no choice so i watched it and it wasn't all tht bad after all i kinda liked it and won't mind watching it again and during the advertisments i watched the tribute concert for Ray Charles and it was kinda cool it was kinda fun watchin tht top U.N guy (kofi annan i think) groovin to the music.. soo cool! aww man it was really cool!! how to say? haha aniwai Pastor Tow today talked abt studies and how to cope i especially liked it when he said "know something of everything, and everything of some things" and "knowledge shared is knowledge assured" no use keeping information to urself rite? oh well yesterday was kind of profitable don't u think? haha gotta go visit eugene's blog now bye!

Fat!

2005-02-12T10:25:00.000+08:00

arghh!!!!!! i've fallen victim to the 'eat too much during Chinese New Year' syndrome.. i've gained 5 kg after 3 days of the new year! especially after my mum cooked huge piles of food yesterday.. and that's not the end of it.. there's still a wedding dinner i hav to attend tonite and tht's gonna be like a bomb for me.. and on sunday we're going to aunty Choy Hong's place and guess wat? it's gonna be pot luck! arghh!! i'm going to grow FAT! good thing there's basketball today.. and i'm planning to lose the full 5kg there i noe i'vedone it b4 but it's not going to be easy especially for me but i'd probably be so shagged that i'll lose appetite for the wedding dinner.. yes! it sounds like the perfect plan! i must remember wat Julian told me.. losing 2kg is like losing water only.. the rest of it is up to me haha.. wish me all the best.

i'd better get going now got to eat lunch.. change and meet zhang timmy and chan later to go buy chocolates at orchard and i'm very late! haha.. wait.. chocolates and basketball? they totally don't mix oh wells.. see you!

sigh?

2005-02-04T10:19:00.000+08:00

arghh! Julian! dun feel down bcos of this k? it's not worth it.. watever it is i'm always beside u k? notice tht i'm beside u not behind u? haha.. ok.. it's not funny.. sorry..
just remember u need patience and tolerence.. real tolerence for this k? i guess these are the 2 hardest values to keep and few have mastered it.. no i'm serious! once u've done this.. i think it's half the battle won already.. oh yeah and it's also important not to be too persistent esp. rite now.. take a break and use this time to repair watever the damage u've taken.. dun worry u have my support all the way!

i dunno..

2005-01-27T09:36:00.000+08:00

why is it tht i feel tht many ppl around me are having a tough time? 4 ppl close to me aren't exactl having the time of their lives, it's like the period of Great Depression where not just 1 person is feeling down but it's a few of us. Why? is it better this way in the sense tht we can share our troubles and actually understand one another better.. or is this all happening by chance?

i myself am experiencing my own problems- both at work and with myself. My job is now demanding tht i work on Sundays and Saturdays. it'sTOUGH for me, they say it's why they hired part-timers like me but b4 i startede the job this didn't seem 2 be the case.. they said tht it would be ok 4 me not to work on Sundays ~sighwhat will happen to my commitments on Sundays? my commitment to God? Losing Saturday is already a sacrifice on my part, tht's already time lost with the Y.F and my friends.. How? what shld i do? the decision by the management is not out yet, i've done what i could.. i've explained my case and tried to work out an greement with the other part-time staff but there is only so much i can do, now i can only wait and pray leaving the rest up to God.

i guess didn't place all these trroubles into our lives at the same time without a reason i believe tht God willed thisso tht we can learntodendand to trust in him in whaever path he chooses for us to take and also to learn to encourage one another.. God bless..

lost in this mess..

2005-01-26T09:38:00.000+08:00

Re-organise: the dictionary describes it as setting things backto it's original stateand tht's wat i'm doing with my thots. it's all over the place, my mind's a mess lately, with so many life 'ideologies' entering this head of mine ever since i started work.. it's very confusing and it blurrs the values i have clung oto all these years.

Friday.. it was kinda refreshing, it was the only time i could take a break from it all but it was GOOD.. the weather, the environment, but most importantly the people there..

But now i've got to get back to work, filtering out my thots over and over again until i have a clear mind again, resetting it back to what it was b4 i stepped into 2005. ~sigh

woo hoo!

2005-01-26T08:49:00.000+08:00

This entry will cover the best 3 days of the month, friday, saturday and Sunday. On friday we went out 2 Sentosa, it was a good break for me and 4 me i went there with a brain switched off i guess tht's a good thing.. haha it's always switched of anyway but ah.. it was soo refreshing we had agood time of fellowship and managed to catch up with 1 another~ sigh got burnt by the sunbut it wasn't as bas as the others, lyk zhang's sho's burn lasted till Sunday and ling ting's who's burn made her feel as if she was blushing whole day long and oh yeah you would be able to see evan's sun burn through her tan haha i guess i got easy.. i guess we all ha fun on Friday.

On Saturday i worked half day at Courts, nothing really fantastic ever happened but i was greatful tht i was able 2 work only half day so tht i could go 4 Y.F in the evening it was quite funny. on the way, i met Chee Chang and his girlfriend at Cityhall interchange and later Serene in the train and finally Johan on the bus when we were on the way 2 church. at Y.F, i was blest by the exortation and fellowship.

On Sunday during choir i heard (silent was the night.. i noe it sounds funny) one of the most touching song in 3 months and was really glad tht we would be singing it as a praise itemand as B.M said, i'm not sure whether i would be worthy enough to sing it for easter..

oh wells tht's a brief summary of what happened till i blog again!

hello 2005!

2005-01-01T20:51:00.000+08:00

it's the 1st day of the new year! haha it's been a busy holiday tht's y i've stopped blogging for a while.. or maybe bcos i'm just lazy oh well i'm just happy tht i'm back blogging.. haha i'm soo tired i've been through 3 camps 2 sleepovers and have been going out almost everyday except for Monday of them s and 1 wednesday.

2004 was a memorable year i learnt many lessons and formed closer friends with the ppl in church so much so tht im not sure if i can live without them.. sigh now tht 2005 is here many of us are going to schl or work (basically returning to the world) i hope and pray tht God would be with us in watever we do and choose God Bless!

i'll miss u Gab! have fun in New Zealand! Sola Fide..

holidays!

2004-12-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

wow its been a long time since i've last updated.. well i guess it's been pretty eventful this week and last but i'll only write abt wat happened this week.. on Mon i went 2 watch The Incredibles! it was fun i went there together with Evan, Dora and Joyce we had a great time 'suaning' or making fun of each other.. aniwais tht was 1 of the days i most likely would not want 2 4get

on Wed my family and i finally decided to paint the house and tht lasted until Sat. and sometimes it was fun but at times it was real frustrating it's an emotions kind of thing aniwai on Fri. Eugene left 4 Japan and it tore my heart apart.. naa.. just kidding i guess Bukit Batok is a much safer and better place without him haha juz kiddin.. naiwai tht's wat happened this week i gotta go now have a fun holiday this yr everyone!

confused

2004-09-23T15:50:00.000+08:00

yay! prelims are over! well.. sort of haha still got 1 more paper to go anyway the whole experience was kinda cool i had my ups and downs.. haha especially with my D&T which is due tommorow morning! anyway its been a very rushed week and i finally finished my artefact.. never ever thought that this day would come.. I burnt myself badly with my dad's soldering iron and it still hurts! oh well i'll kinda goin to miss my prelims haha sounds dumb rite? maybe its because its the only time when i feel pressured to work harder.. i even chased my parents especially my sister out of my room without thinking.. sigh i should really learn to control myself better.. honestly i haven't been really as close to God as i thought i should be. i keep giving the stupid excuseof being too busy argh.. i've never been this angry with myself before..but i'm glad i've realised my mistakes and am doing something about it YEAH! but i must remember to pray for guidance for i know i cannot do anything alone.. looking foward to the Ubin trip funny thing is i don't when it is.. sigh haven't been attending teenz for a long time already.. i'm startin to miss the people there.. yup and the environment too.. oh well there's nothing much i can do but wait haha oh well gotta get back to my D&T haha pray for me!

plummet!

2004-08-30T20:12:00.000+08:00

arggggh!! i've got brain sprain! i don't noe how to feel.. 1 moment i'm stress.. the other i go nuts in class ~sigh.. its affecting my studies.. like during math, when i feel cheery and all, i can breeze through the paper but when im in the wrong mood im stuck at every question.. i've started being lazy all over again.. i try to study but just can't .. it's tough.. O Lord lead this stray sheep back to it's fold..

Parc..ohh!

2004-08-18T19:47:00.000+08:00

hee hee.. 2day went shopping! haha not exactly for clothes or anythin of tht sort.. went to buy electronics 4 dnt at Sim Lim tower.. wah soo far then we (kok wei, me and eugene) still left sooo.. late.. 4:30 then got a taxi.. when we got there i had to pay the full 10 bucks.. u watch out Gene.. haha joking joking.. err then we spent half an hour wandering around the basement b4 actually buying something.. kok wei had the most problems in finding his parts 4 dnt but i was the dumbest in buying the parts.. i spent $11 on batteries alone and leaving the total bill to be about 30 bucks.. stupid me i also realised the owner cheated Gene, he charged him $2.50 4 the speakers but i got it for $2! cool eh? but i'm probably never gonna go back there.. after tht we had $3 chicken rice.. what a rip off man! oh well, nothing else to eat mah.. after tht we went to Bugis Junction and then to Parco.. we wandered around there imagining we were rich kids with all the money in the world to spend, Gene managed to talk me into buying a $3.80 ice-cream ihad coffee and fererro roche if tht's how u spell it.. and i had to actually eat the coffee bean to realise tht it was real i almost spat it out in the Sony Gallery.. we walked some more until 7:30 where we had to BRAINSTORM about whether we should to take the MRT or taxi whew it was a tough decision to make ~dotz.. anyway we took the MRT.. it took around half an hour to get back home then went to the pasar malam! i had my 1st ever special burger and it was soo good! haha anyways we returned home tired and hungry still.. i guessed we shopped till we dropped! haha.. ok not funny not funny..

sigh..

2004-08-17T10:09:00.000+08:00

Stress!so many people out there mugging full force already.. oh man i'm slackin too much, look at my math it's horrible! I've gotta get started, man.. only 2 and a half more months.. antway gotta get back to doing my geog.. =p oh well i won't be as on-line as often any more haha.. i guess tht's good for me too.. arghh gotta go!! oh yeah all the best to those takin Os' and those in Teenz taking ur Finals! CHEERS!!

chemical- stained shoes

2004-08-11T19:35:00.000+08:00

Had a bad start at schl 2day, got up late and got so frustrated had 3 pieces of work not done yet i felt the stress to finish it up b4 recess.. anyway d&t was boring but fun as usual.. but tht was when i realised abt the 2 tests which i didn't noe abt.. Geog and Phy my 2 "fav." subjects i felt very unprepared and got easily irritated, i couldn't stand it.. all the books i needed to revise with me were at home.. tht got me down for the whole day.. anyway b4 having the geog test we had practical chemistry or chemistry practical..watever.. i had fun, we played around with the apparatus and chemicals and the ever playful eugene got shouted at by melissa.. tht was funny, it had the whole class in silence.. i too commited an equally embarrasing crime, apparantly while i was heating solid x and dissolving it in Chlorine water using a splinter to stir the solution in a narrow and hot test-tube, it's base cracked and the contents spilt all over my pants and shoes, i spent 10mins. cleaningit off.. i had no guts to report the disaster i had caused so i hid it in the drawer ~sigh~ i felt so bad..